I was diagnosed with Lupus almost 7 years ago. May 2009 was my last flare...the day my divorce was final. I'll let you draw your own conclusions. I spent years and years researching ways of how to keep myself stress-free and healthy... Who would have known that I was looking at the puzzle from the wrong angle?
One of my sisters, we'll call her sister J, thinks this would be great therapy for me since I won't go. On my defense, I did go to therapy... where I spent all of my time talking about my mother (who passed away 11 years ago)... I considered myself over the ex.
Then sister J told me I should talk about all of the Stages of Grief I go through. I rolled my eyes, then told her I know all of the stages: 1. Denial (I don't see why I need to do this... I'm fine.) 2. Anger (if she gives me one more things to write, I'm going to ignore her for a day or two.) 3. Bargaining (If I do this, maybe she'll leave me alone.) 4. Depression (I always skip this phase... Just a personal philosophy... life is too short to get sad, so find the positive.) 5. Acceptance (I'm doing this...aren't I.)
I LOVE my kids!!!! They were the BEST things that came of my marriage...really!!! But this is suppose to be about me, not them...UGH!!! See, it's so easy for me to focus on everyone else except myself... It's in my nature... remember... I'm a teacher.
Divorces sucks! I usually try to use better language because I am a teacher, but sucks sums it up. If I never had to deal with the ex, I think I would have a different attitude and word). But I do have to deal with the ex, so the word sucks stays.
Nice...my blog is really good therapy. Plus, I can use it to make myself look like a better person than I really am. ; )
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